Beauty is in the eye of the beholder? I never really bought that, did you? How could someone else find me beautiful if I couldn’t see it myself. £50 on a haircut, new shoes and a dress hugging the figure I micro-managed calories to keep. It’s what’s inside that counts, says the magazine; you need to be thinner screams the paper. Hair too short, nose too big, eyes should be greena nd not brown. Grow the hair, contact-lense up the eyes and pull down that top, just a little bit further. Boobs, heels, shoulder whipping waves, leave a lingering scent as you walk by. At home tears. ” hour nightmares tryign to simply get dressed. Smile, don’t forget to use those lashes..the woman said the mascara gives telescopic laughing eyes. Hahahaha. This? Thanks, but really, just something I threw on. Calves tight, breathe in. No thank you, I just ate.
Stop. Eat. Keep it down.
Enough with the self hatred the self loathing for your looks.
Enough of chasing the person you’re told that you could be if only you do this, drink this, buy this, try this.
Stop with the cloning of yourself with no soul.
Enough with dressing for people you don’t know. Enough of fretting what they think of your choice.
Who do you want to be? Me. Who do want your eyes to see? Her.
I read another woman’s beautiful prose earlier this week, she said “Islam had made her a swan”, I like those words, I felt those words but it’s more than that too: Wearing hijab took away the beholders, stripped my defences, left me whole, in heels, with prettier eyes.
Our beauty is ours to behold.
(Thanks for the prompt, Fadra)
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